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What do you mean?
You didn't do anything wrong, Simon.
I'm the one who did something I shouldn't have

all the drugs in everything you'd been drinking you weren't in your right mind and I took advantage of that there's no way you would have otherwise

[Because Harrow is straight as an arrow! A board! A ruler! And on and on...]

how could you do something wrong when it's what I wanted Harrow?

[He stares at the words after hitting enter. Fuck.]

[ "When it's what I wanted"?

That's a lot to unpack. That's so much to unpack. He doesn't know where to begin with this, but he's more focused on getting across to Simon that he did nothing wrong for now. ]

I was perfectly in my right mind, Simon. Did I act differently than usual? Of course. This is all new and confusing and a lot to handle.

But I didn't do anything last night that I didn't want to do.

[Simon isn't stupid. Neither is Harrow. And yet he keeps trying to deny and push away any reasons that Harrow wanted the same thing. He can't have wanted that, he couldn't have been in his right mind when he looked down at him and brushed his fingers through his hair and called him "beautiful". Looked at him like he was everything. Touched him and moaned his name... it was just this place, that's it.]

You don't have to say that to make me feel better Please You would have never done any of that if not for this place This wouldn't have happened back home Ever

How do you know that?

[He stares at the words, considers not answering back. He doesn't for almost long enough to think he isn't going to.]

Because you're my boss Because you're literally the straightest man I know Because you're infuriating and I can't stand you Because you've never looked at me that way before here

[ This is hard. He wants to tell Simon that he wanted it. That he did what he did through his own choices. But also...that requires him to examine things that he hasn't had a chance to fully unpack yet. ]

Fair
I very much doubt that
Also fair

[ That last point is so, so, dangerous. For so many reasons. He can fuck this up. He can say something he shouldn't. He can open a door he has no business looking through. He can close a door that he'll never be able to open again. It's that last point that delays his text almost as long as Simon. ]

I never noticed. Typical of me, isn't it?

[He can't do this. Not right now. He was prepared for... anything but this. He almost wishes Harrow were angry at him, it'd be easier to handle some how.]

I'm sorry I worried you Harrow but I can't

[Those typing dots are going wild for quite a bit, he types and deletes plenty of things, but they all don't feel like the right thing to say. So he gives up more or less, finally—]

I just need some time I think

[ This is something Harrow can't figure out. Can't put the pieces together to find the answer that's right in front of him like he would a case. All he knows is that he won't push, even if he can't stand the thought of Simon blaming himself for whatever reason. ]

Of course. Take all the time you need.

I'll be here.

[ Waiting. ]

[And yet Harrow's words are understanding and patient. He probably should have exected that too.]

Okay

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