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Simon just give it back. Wash it and give it back. It's not that hard. Don't be weird, that's Harrow's job.
God is my life this boring now that I have nothing better to write about than a stupid denim shirt?
God is my life this boring now that I have nothing better to write about than a stupid denim shirt?
Edited 2022-10-30 05:27 (UTC)
Tomorrow is Halloween and I can't help but wonder how everyone is doing back home. Wonder if my absence is still felt or if it's just become the norm now. Simon isn't here anymore, that's just how things are.
Guess not for everyone. It seemed like it really messed up Harrow... honestly didn't expect that.
Guess not for everyone. It seemed like it really messed up Harrow... honestly didn't expect that.
Party is tonight. I guess I'm excited, to go do something "normal". Normal as we can be here, normal as I can feel considering everything. Be good to have a drink with Harrow again, it'll feel kinda weird not being on the Bettie though.
[Simon goes to the front desk of the hotel and asks if they can print something for him. Taped to this page of his journal is this face:]
Edited 2022-11-02 03:45 (UTC)
Still not sure what to put here. Think the desk staff will think I'm weird if I ask them to print my face every day from now on because I don't know what to write.
Guess I'll leave it at that. I don't know what to write. Don't know how to feel completely about all of this with Harrow.
Guess I'll leave it at that. I don't know what to write. Don't know how to feel completely about all of this with Harrow.
Even with Harrow at work too it's still easy to get lost in it and forget about the crazy shit from the party. So I guess that's good.
Still haven't moved in with Harrow, feels too soon, feels... all of this feels like too much. I should be happy, right? I'm alive here and Harrow wants me.
Why am I fighting this so much then?
Why am I fighting this so much then?
Dear Me. Stop over thinking this and just live while you're allowed to. Signed me.
God I think I'm losing my mind.
God I think I'm losing my mind.
Oh good, something else to focus on now. Antlers. I think I'm growing antlers now. Got little fuzzy nubs poking out of the top of my head, but my hair hides them right now.
Feels like velvet, can't stop rubbing them. That sounds so dirty, god.
Feels like velvet, can't stop rubbing them. That sounds so dirty, god.
Would it be suggestive if I asked Harrow if he wants to touch my nubs? God Simon why are you like this?
Hey Goggle is it weird if you miss the scent of your boss when you're not around him? Yeah? Cool, just asking for a friend. Thanks.
Ugh. UGH. I've had to stop myself from shoving my face into Harrow's neck multiple times at work. It's bad. Really bad.
Ugh. UGH. I've had to stop myself from shoving my face into Harrow's neck multiple times at work. It's bad. Really bad.
Edited 2022-11-13 09:25 (UTC)
Okay I'm going to stop being weird about this and just talk to him about it. Again. I'm being more weird about all of this than Harrow. Harrow is being the least weird, which is why this is weird!
I figured he'd be... I dunno... not disgusted by it, but... try to excuse or blame the changes to our bodies on it, that it was just a one time thing, but he hasn't. He's been okay with it from the start. I guess that's what's confused me the most. Never would have thought this would happen and that he'd be okay with it.
I figured he'd be... I dunno... not disgusted by it, but... try to excuse or blame the changes to our bodies on it, that it was just a one time thing, but he hasn't. He's been okay with it from the start. I guess that's what's confused me the most. Never would have thought this would happen and that he'd be okay with it.
The nubs have gotten nubbier. Just a little.
I've started rubbing my nubs absentmindedly when working on paperwork or on my laptop. I refuse to reword that. It's funnier that way.
Just realized, it's getting close to Thanksgiving. Times like this I want to try calling Karina or my parents again, but it would be the same as before. If it wasn't... then what?
Don't be stupid, Simon.
Don't be stupid, Simon.
I knew what to expect, but I ended up trying anyway. Couple times. Someone picked up when I called my sister, but they said they'd had that number for years. Parents number said it was disconnected this time. Called it again and instead it said the voicemail was full, but for a name that I didn't recognize.
Maybe if I call enough times they'll finally pick up?
Maybe if I call enough times they'll finally pick up?
Been checking out listings for apartments in the area, kinda getting an idea of the pricing. Also seeing what's monster friendly. We love segregation ho boy.
[It's a list of numbers and addresses to call and get back to for apartments.]
Don't forget to check on these.
Don't forget to check on these.
Edited 2022-11-29 03:44 (UTC)
[He's crossed a couple things off on the last entry.]
Wish they would put on the listing they don't rent to monsters. Thanks for wasting my time dickheads.
Wish they would put on the listing they don't rent to monsters. Thanks for wasting my time dickheads.
[All of the places are crossed off now from the 16th.]
Back to the drawing board.
Maybe I should ask Harrow if he's had any luck, he must be looking too.
Back to the drawing board.
Maybe I should ask Harrow if he's had any luck, he must be looking too.
Work is talking about doing a little Thanksgiving thing. People are being asked to bring in something if they come to the party. Maybe I will... could cheat and grab something at the store to bring. Doubt anyone would fuss about it.
Should see if Harrow is thinking of going.
Should see if Harrow is thinking of going.
I was thinking about it and wondered why this place would even do Thanksgiving, but I guess there are people from all over so... not something we do back home either, but guess it can't hurt to participate in festivities a little.
Harrow says he'll go if I go. Thanks, leave it up to me huh?
Harrow says he'll go if I go. Thanks, leave it up to me huh?
Sure did love bickering in the store like an old married couple about what we were going to bring to the party tomorrow. I said we should each bring something separate, but then what I picked Harrow said that's what he wanted.
I think he was just being a dick. I know he was.
We decided to go halfsies on a cookie platter. It's a LOT of cookies.
I think he was just being a dick. I know he was.
We decided to go halfsies on a cookie platter. It's a LOT of cookies.
You know I wasn't expecting much with this Thanksgiving party, but it was nice. Felt good. The cookies were a hit and between everyone bringing something there was also plenty to take home.
Both Harrow and I had a couple plates wrapped to go. Thought about maybe going to his room for a bit... maybe a small drink, but probably not a good idea.
Both Harrow and I had a couple plates wrapped to go. Thought about maybe going to his room for a bit... maybe a small drink, but probably not a good idea.
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