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overboarded) wrote2022-09-20 05:23 am
overboarded) wrote2022-09-20 05:23 am
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"This is Simon, you know what to do."
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"This is Simon, you know what to do."
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"This is Simon, you know what to do."
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idk normally i'm all about talking things over but
what would i even say?
what if we talk and he says something i don't want to hear
that would suck
what if i offend him and he stops talking to me?
what if i freak him out and he stops talking to me?
what if he stops talking to me
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you like him huh?
you really have stepped in it
I guess proceed at your own caution
but it sounds like this is already eating away at you
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sort of. i mean i knew it was stupid but i did it anyway because i'm weak
i literally only know what my sister told me about him and she wasn't even very specific because blah blah confidential stuff
and what he told me which seemed honest enough
i mean if he were lying it would be the dumbest thing to lie about
i can't explain it but
i feel comforted when i talk to him and he's really nice and not a creep
and i've met some real creeps
i have a history with creeps
also i get all funny whenever someone calls me by my last name, which is the way he talks to other me. ryder. and i told him to call me scott and he just does it?
he forgot once or twice but most of the time he does it and he never questioned me on it not once even though it's something he's used to and would probably be easier on him if i weren't funny about it
most guys i know would insist i'm being stupid and even if i am he doesn't and he never once made me feel stupid for it
or anything
[ That is to say, yes, he likes him. ]
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damn scott you really like him
you trust this guy and he went to bat for you against that eddie guy
seems like however complicated he's got a connection to you too
but I get it
having that someone you just feel comfortable and right around
someone your heart connects to even if it's messy maybe even wrong
there's just that thing that brings you together
sounds stupid and sappy I know
but I think stupid and sappy is right up your alley
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what can i say i'm a hopeless romantic
but that's what it feels like more or less
i feel like we share something when we're talking
but still there is that tiny but very loud side of me that's wondering if he's looking at me and seeing ryder not scott
which makes me feel a little shitty seeing as i'm the one who flirts a lot and put the moves on him so maybe i don't have the right to worry about this NOW
┗( T﹏T )┛
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hearts sure do complicate things huh?
has reyes ever looked uncomfortable with that?
asked you to stop?
but yeah that def makes it rougher the whole other you thing
this ryder
look I don't want to add to that tiny but loud side of you but I think it would be foolish to pretend like there's not something there because of ryder
but you guys can't be exactly the same he must see you as different since he doesn't call you ryder
I think you've got every right to worry tho
hell I still get that shitty nagging feeling in my own head about me and harrow
that it's only because of this monster stuff the whole mate brained thing
he never showed an inkling of interest in me like this back home
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ryder must be a terrible flirt too since he seemed used to it
and no you're right and i asked him if he felt bothered about it or something
he said it didn't bother him but he did affect him like he was being so honest about it
and then i slept with him anyway because i'm really stupid and make bad decisions
but with you and harrow when you still feel that shitty nagging feeling does it go away fast or does it sit with you for days
is it more like a thing you have to probably get used to because you're being your own worst enemy or
something that is probably a big problem that you ignore until it calms down and bothers you in a week or two again
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wouldn't put it all on yourself scott
it takes too too tango
*two too
it hasn't been too bad lately probably has to do with all the baby stuff
all those extra lovey dovey mommy hormones or something
sometimes I type things and hit enter and hate myself
it was pretty bad after the first time we had sex
it was really driven by the mate brained shit
I thought that's the only reason harrow would ever be with me
and that hurt you know? had some pretty strong feelings for him for years
but he's assured me more than once that he feels the same he just didn't realize until you know
you don't know what you got till it's gone or however the song goes
to answer your question but also not really: yes and no?
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[ He's five leave him alone. ]
omg if ryder shows up you're not allowed to like him more than me
i can't speak for all the animal mate brain shit because i haven't been animal brained yet
unless i have and don't realize it
but you have to feel something from him right? something that feels real and not like it's just this whole transformation messing with his head?
like that special connection
the little spark
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and what if I think you're both cool? equally super cool and part of the same face gang?
what if I think you're just a smidge bit cooler?
yeah yeah of course I do but
idk it's kinda weird tho sometimes thinking about it
about before I died and ended up here
harrow never showed any signs before never looked at me the way he does now
or maybe I just missed it
maybe I didn't know him as well as I thought
but I know he means it even if my mind tries to because I told him not to lie to me again
he won't
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okay that's fine i'll allow it
anyway maybe you did miss something
maybe he's more obvious about it now because he knows you're super duper hot for him (^・ω・^ )
also you guys have known each other a long time right
reyes and i just met here
and reyes couldn't have known ryder that long either
ryder is too busy running around the cluster solving everyone's problems
not to diminish what they have
had
whatever
idk i guess i'm just saying it sounds like you and harrow have a deep trust that probably came from a lot of talking and experiencing bullshit together
actually it's funny you said that about telling harrow not to lie to you again
because the truth seemed to be a big uuh hurdle between them
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He wears all denim 99% of the time
Drinks and listens to records and oldies
Can't shave for shit
Was always dating or seeing women
All the clues add up to not me
Yeah uh you could say we've experienced some bullshit together
It sounds like you need to make it a thing for you and Reyes and dtr
Maybe take a bit of your own advice
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there's only so much you can blame on the animal brain right i mean if he were that straight maybe he would have found a
bitch
[ Lol get it]
why did you have to tell him not to lie to you again anyway
i mean you don't have to answer obviously it just seems like a theme here
[ He's not ignoring the other thing just...gently placing it to the side for now. This is relevant okay! ]
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when did this become about me anyway???
alright okay
you can't repeat what I'm going to tell you to anyone
not Reyes
Waylon
Your sister if she shows up here
No one
I'm only telling you because this is some weird purgatory between time and space apparently
Also you're from the future ANYWAY
we had a case where we found bones in concrete in the river
Clear murder cover up
I worked on it myself personally for months with some help from harrow's girl at the time real smart sharp as hell
Could see why he liked her
Long story short harrow was the killer
After a while started getting an inkling it could be him
Hated to think it
I asked him if there was something I should know
And he lied to my face
Confronted him myself in the end
It was self defense against his ex-wife's husband he was a real nasty piece of work
But he still hid it
Covered it up or tried too
I helped him in the end
Without me he would have been caught
And maybe after I died he killed the guy who murdered me
but yeah
told him don't lie to me again
Okay done word vomiting
You're sworn to secrecy or I'll tell everyone you're the baby in the same face gang
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[ Yeah give him a moment to come up with something more than that. That all took a turn he hadn't been expecting. ]
yeah yeah of course i won't tell a single soul
shit
are you sure you can call this man the straightest anymore
he promised not to lie to you EVER again
killed a guy for you
found out you were into him
then put the smooth moves on you in a CLUB
got a place with you
Impregnated you
that's pretty gay
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anyone else I'd say it was pretty gay but
that's the thing I don't think harrow would be interested in any other men
also getting me knocked up wasn't planned!
technically
sure he might have said he wanted to fill me with his puppies while we've had sex here and there
and I might have encouraged him and said I wanted that
BUT IT WAS DURING MATE BRAIN STUFF
we didn't actually think you know it would happen since I'm a guy
look you won't get it until it happens to you
if it even does
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[ SORRY SORRY he just pictured these two talking about pregnancy in the middle of sex and he lost it. ]
don't say that
i'm not getting knocked up or knocking up
unlike some people i am responsible
[ Now he's just teasing. ]
also the fact that he's not into any other men but you somehow makes this gayer
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you? responsible? for some reason I don't believe that for a second
and I could be totally wrong about that okay
but it just
it feels like that
like I'm the only one
really not helping my he's super straight argument am I?
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[ He has probably sounded crazier, honestly. He shouldn't judge. But it's funny. He's sorry, face twin. ]
okay so
maybe he's simonsexual
would that be SO bad?
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not a big talker typically just your standard oh fuck sorta gay
guy*
okay maybe autocorrect was right
and NO
no it's not BAD but
I don't know scott it's complicated or maybe it is for me
maybe I'm making a big stupid deal out of something that doesn't have to be
this is my second shot at having some kind of life before whatever this is ends
I won't waste it
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[ Definitely thought it was on purpose until he corrected himself. ]
no it's not stupid
even if it was i know what you mean
you can't help how you think
even less so here i guess
it doesn't sound like you're wasting it at all
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see this is why we're same face gang
we get each other
and all our gay hot messes
yeah guess not
I'm knocked up and living with bf/boss
think I'm doing pretty okay
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not that i would wish it on anyone but it is kind of nice to know someone who steps knee deep in it like i do
yeah all of that is so nice but remember you also have a super cool face twin who is going to drag your ass to the movies and isn't that what really counts
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not just same face gang but a brother from another mother across time AND space
just the two of us or are we doing a double date for the movies?
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my sister included
i don't mind a double date but then that means i have to actually ask reyes out
would it be weird
idk the rules for this situation
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